Be Brave

My Dear Scarlett,

Your Mama desperately needs to stop reading articles about what our first few months with you will be like. While well-intentioned, they're terrifying! Even if it's true that your Daddy and I will essentially be hostages in our own home, enslaved by your emotions and needs for what seems like FOREVER, that's not what I want to hear right now.

I'm scared enough as it is and I just want to imagine that it won't be as hard as I think and that everything will be just fine (because it will). So I'm going to take a break from all these other "mommy blogs" and just enjoy my time with you as you grow inside me. I'm going to try my best to just BE BRAVE.

Daddy and I had our first prenatal class last night! It was lots of fun - the instructor is a hoot and the information she gave us was really interesting! After the class we went out for a nice dinner and spent some time staring at one-another and marveling at how lucky we are to have found each other and now to be expecting you. We are shamelessly, nauseatingly in love (as you will soon discover).

Your Daddy sings to you from time to time and has taken to teaching you life-lessons already! Last night he advised you to spend a lot of time just quietly observing people because you can learn a lot about the world we live in by people-watching. He's an old soul, your Daddy, but he's a wise one. He also said the following:

"You're gonna be kind and wise, just like your Mama. So make sure you listen to her - she's a smart lady with a lot of great advice to give."

We love you.
Mama xoxox

Unsure

Hello Darling,

Can you tell how anxious I am? I have countless moments of doubt, insecurity, uncertainty, and heart-stopping fear. One moment I'll be blissfully imagining what our lives will be like once you arrive, and the next moment will see me emotionally doubled-over in crippling fear that I will screw you up and fail to provide you with all the love and care you deserve.

I can't promise you that I won't fail you ... and I can't promise you that I won't disappoint you ... but I can promise you this:

There will never be a day, sweet child, that I don't love you.
There will never come a time that you question where your home is.

We will always love you and we will always be your home.

Love,
Mama

Voices

Hi My Girl,

I'm sorry that I haven't written to you as much lately. I was very sick again last weekend and had to spend 4 days in the hospital getting lots of medications and fluids to help make me better. I hope you weren't too disturbed by being poked and prodded by all the doctors and nurses. It was lovely to hear your steady little heartbeat over and over during my hospital stay. Every time the nurses gave me medication they would listen to your heart to make sure you weren't being affected by it (you weren't - you are still as healthy as can be!)

I'm feeling much better these days - still tired and achy but the doctors have given me medicine to take for the rest of my pregnancy to (hopefully) prevent me from getting sick again. I hope you're doing okay in there and that you can feel how deeply loved you are.

You are now almost 23 weeks and seem to be testing your boundaries! Your movements are much stronger and seem almost deliberate at times - especially when your Daddy talks to you. Every time you hear his voice you kick and squirm like crazy! It's very special for both of us to know you're developing a connection with him already. He's going to be your best friend, I just know it! He calls you his Little Lady and Little Dancer and constantly tells you how much he loves you and has been thinking of you. Do you ever get tired of hearing our voices? We talk to you so much!

I can't wait to hear your voice for the first time, sweet girl.

I love you,
Mama